The simple life

Wow, it was beneficial for me to visit my blog, after so much time. I guess I could say that I am still at the same spot I was in last November...wondering where to go next? I still am overwhelmed and have taken some steps toward relief of that. Since November, I have tried hiring several assistants, to no avail. So, I have upgraded my license so that I can work independently and I also am working affiliated with a traditional office that provides many time saving efficiency tools at a price. But I have to remember that I don't want money as much as I want less time at work.

I specifically came online today to blog about balancing work and family. I think balance is a myth. I think that you have to make choices and prioritize according to your goals. I absolutely love being home with my son. I gaze into his 3 year old eyes while he sits on my lap and tell him how blessed we are to have each other and how much I thank God for giving me a son. I love him that much. Especially when it's quiet and I'm not rushing and I have time to love him. I only have that time when I make the choice not to work. It is easy to fill up my WAH day with busyness. I am trying very hard to only work early in the am or at his nap time and if for whatever reason I can't work at those times I do not work during other times of the day-except to answer the telephone. I am trying to put him 1st and the housework 2nd. I have been really taking it easy at work. It is simply a question of deciding what to do next.

The entrepreneur in me says grow-in fact my business grows automatically, and it is a blessing to have money.

I think my goals will have to be to just earn enough-and nothing more. I think I felt like a failure to cap my growth. I have to make sure of what I want. I feel this pressure to keep growing, to make as much money as I can to some avail...but what avail? I believe that the best thing I can do is be a good mom, and a good wife.

So, I have to balance ambition with motherhood and I can do it if I stop to evaluate my goals and the consequences.

The baby woke up from nap, so I've got to go!